I smoked ten cigarettes today. I job hunted till about 4. I called Arun. He called me back. We barely spoke.
I reminisced about Pa Pa and De Jh. They both were too clingy and too demonstrative in their affections and I just wasnt interested. I think I was a tad too rude with DeJh. Why do men chase women like this? It's so uncouth. And unwelcome. And putting off.
My periods have begun.
I reflected a lot today and had lots of tea. I chanted. I meditated. I bathed a while ago after a longish walk. Ma seems in better health.
In a world riddled with jealousy I think I should bless all. People could really do with my blessings. And that is what I always do.
There is this cute old cat in the building with light grey eyes. I call him Cherry. Ive fallen in love with him. Kitoon has amber greenish eyes. Beautiful.
On my evening walk a bouyant labrador started jumping and playing with me. It scared me a little frankly. Reminds me of Simboom who was my Dino.
I read a bit of Elements of Style. My grammar has gotten rusty.
I'll eat dinner now and snooze.
I am grateful for all Life's small and great blessings and this immense love in my heart. I am grateful for food, money, shelter, good relationships.
I am feeling:
A little parched
Clean because of my bath
Don't want to turn in so quick. It's just 9. I think I'll read and write.
I love my parents, brother and Sadhya.
Love,
Me.
8.54 pm ist
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