It's Sonam's birthday today. I wished her. It's been so long. I just got off after massaging Ma's back. She has some tension in the hip area. She really enjoyed the massage. That makes me feel so good!
I went to sleep at 2 am last night. This late sleep cycle cannot continue. I woke up at 7 feeling foggy and groggy. I did my morning chanting and meditation and went out for a short walk. Then I came home and did a few yogasanas.
I'm wearing a short white dress with courduroy pants. I had upma for breakfast. I don't particularly like upma but this was yum.
I oil pulled and went in for a soothing bath. I oiled my hair.
Then I consumed the news a bit. Then I settled down to send a few emails. Last night I sent Arun a message that I deleted in the morning. I wonder how he is?
I got an interview call today. I hope for the best!
I had shaag, chokha, cauliflower, and fish curry with rice for lunch. I polished it off with a mango. It was truly yum.
Having a few tasks to do each day makes the day more manageable. I settled down to watch Ted Talks.
Oh yes! Ma completely lost it in the morning again. And I reacted badly reducing me to tears. I think Ma probably has stresses on her mind. Probably related to me. That is why she flushes out her frustrations on me. I should really appreciate her more and not get into a negative loop everytime there is an altercation.
I'll sit and write my novel now and read Daisaku Ikeda. I saw some very interesting Ted Talks-- on neuroplasticity, on designing your life, on creating luck, on appreciation. Once in a while Ted Talks is really good.
I really want to surmount obsessive thoughts. I think a big part of my breakup with Arun was that I got obsessed with him. It derailed my entire life.
Now Novel. Then reading.
I am feeling:
Heart hurt but loving
Breathing cleanly
Reasonably tanned and pretty
Happy
I am so grateful for the interview call I got today.
I am grateful that I got the chance to massage Ma's back. I love bonding with my loved ones.
I am grateful for Ted Talks. I learn so much from them.
I am grateful that I know some day I can call Arun up. That we are not not on talking terms like that.
I am grateful for all the yummy food I each day; for shelter; for money and work. I am grateful for the many ways Modelley and Duma serve us making our lives easier.
Melon and Kitoo are here. Im grateful for their innocent presence.
I am grateful for the web. It's made life so much easier.
I am grateful for beautiful relationships.
I am grateful for my depth and my sensitivity and my heart and my beautiful soul.
I am grateful for my wardrobe.
I am grateful for my good health.
I am grateful that I can increasingly easily follow my thoughts and feelings pass.
I am grateful for the flow with which I am writing my novel. It's just the first draft.
I am grateful for all the experiences of my life.
I am grateful for all the people who have graced my life and for the ones who are about to enter.
I am grateful for God's infinite, love, grace and blessings on my life.
There is so much beauty in my life!
Love,
Me.
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