Journal 5.40 pm ist on 12.6.2026 I got the job

Dearest Journal,

Last night I spent some time with Twi. Even Sadhya and Buro came home. Sadhya complained about Buro but it's nothing serious. Buro came in looking tired and seriously tanned.

I went to sleep around 1 am. I woke up at 7.41 feeling a tad groggy. I did my lemon juice, chanting, meditation routine, stepped out to get some sun and did some light stretches. Ma was busy with Saurabh Bothra.

I had 4 cutlets for breakfast, had a bath and wore my AND orange shirt and brown trousers. I then sat with the news. Then I left for the interview.

The man I met was affable but worried. He said his business is down in the dumps. He then told me that I'm overqualified for the job. However, he offered me the job. The pay is peanuts but he said he'll double my salary if I do well and plus there are incentives. It's 6 pm now.

This is something I want to do. I'm best positioned when I can inspire the person in front of me. The place of my work is my Buddha land where I shìne brightest. I think this is a good opportunity. I start Monday.

I came home and researched about the things I could talk about. I went through some Ted Talks.

I had lau, dal, keema with rice and a mango for lunch. Duma has made me some sheera.

I watched more talks after lunch. Ma shouted at me over coffee consumption.

I think I need to change my heart towards my mother. Kind of perceive her differently, like a whole woman. She is strong but she has a tendency to be too aggressive. But she is loveable. Like when she dances these days to videos as exercise. She is a happy person.

The song Lilabali was stuck in my head all day long. I've had 6 cigarettes so far.

I think when the speech is pure the voice is golden, when the actions are pure and well-intentioned the body glows and when the mind is well-balanced, grateful, appreciative and happy there is strength.

I've stopped overthinking. Somehow writing about my feelings and thoughts in this journal has caused me to step back and observe my feelings and thoughts with awareness. So I think. Mostly over the stick. But I'm not ruminating so much these days.

I read a little Daisaku Ikeda too.

Now I'll chant and then work on my novel.

I just hope I have good energy for the work I'm meant to do and that my health supports me. The salary will also allow me to pay Arun back.

I am feeling:

Happy

Balanced

Centred

Slightly sticky

I find the breeze from the fan heavenly

Sweet

Focused

Determined

I am grateful that I've found work as a soft skills trainer. I think I will be able to perform really well at this job.

I am grateful for graceful loving relationships. 

I am grateful for food, shelter and money and work. They sustain me.

I am grateful for friends.

I am grateful for my clothes, my footwear, my family, my home, my bed, my laptop, the internet and wifi.

I am grateful that I'm healthy.

I am grateful for society.

Love,

Me.

6.23 pm