Yesterday in the afternoon I had a full-blown panic attack and cried a lot. I had to miss my rehearsals because of that. I'm so sorry I've broken up with A. That makes me so sad. I think there were misunderstandings and I didn't conduct myself really well.
Today in the morning I had a dream that Na Ka had got married to somebody. Then I was having chicken with someone. Then I saw Ketda saying something or the other.
Today Mee Chat spoke to me for a long time. Then De Jh called. Sa Li called. And Va Pe also called. Va Pe told me that Na Ka actually got married recently. Good for him. I'm so happy for him.
Right now I'm at rehearsals. Ku Va is going over all the songs in the play.
Today I restarted my Tarot ad.
I'm going to focus only on work now. No relationships. No towtowing around with people. It's good to receive calls from friends.
I wish I could quit smoking.
I met See Dhi yesterday. And she told me to leave the past behind and not feel so guilty and face the future.
For the past 6 years or so I've been enjoying myself and priorities got blurred. I must set my priorities straight.
Ra Ti looks so much like Shy Kis. I thought he would be like him but he's not. He's a far more decent man.
A Buddha is recognised by how he conducts himself. I must conduct myself well.
Oh yes, I also went after a long time and did my yoga and chanting under the canopy.
The rehearsal space is a nice, cozy spot.
Ra Ti says my performance has become much better. My energy is also more up.
I saw 12 Angry Men yesterday.
I hope A is well. An Air India plane crashed yesterday. I thought a lot about A's daughter and people who take flights regularly. This was so sad. Tragic.
I am feeling:
Sweaty
Itchy
Happy
Focused
Loving and full of love
I am grateful for A's presence in my life.
I am grateful for my brother and Sadhya and my darling parents.
I am grateful for this beautiful wonderful life.
I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace and blessings in my life.
This life is going to play out really well.
Yesterday I also spoke to a shit astrologer. Must beware of quacks.
I also met Sa from Ai yesterday. He's a good guy.
Love,
Me.
7.34 pm
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