I just came back after meeting Krao. He suggests an injection once a month that people are doing well with. He has ruled out any major mental illness a long time ago.
He just said that the thin line between between imagination and fantasy and unrealism may be getting breached sometimes and that I should be more busy.
I told him about my sleepless nights and he suggested reading.
I also spoke to him about Arun. I still love my Arun. I cried while talking about him. I also realised that Arun lied. He did, right? But I love him all the same. I accepted Arun with all his twisted characteristics. I love him wholeheartedly. Where is he travelling?
I've found it difficult to get anything done since morning.
The mind is sharp and bright and for once for some reason it is not overthinking things.
I really hope to get a job.
I have an appointment with a Nadi astrologer tomorrow after my dpm.
I hope to be able to pay back Arun's money soon.
My ten year goals:
To be a happy loving humanbeing who is self-sufficient and independent in every way.
To be healthy and a contributing member of society.
To buy a house of my own.
To have meaningful loving friendships.
To be a bestselling author.
To hold a good job.
To be super rich personally. To have a healthy relationship with money.
To have a happy family life.
To have Arun in my life and to contribute to his life in a meaningful way.
I am so grateful to God that my parents and healthy fit and fine.
Miso has passed on into the beyond. He suffered a lot. But he was a loving Bhutu.
I think I'll sit and do a meditative exercise now and then settle in with a book.
When my mornings are productive I always have a good day.
Love,
Me.
6.14 pm
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