Journal 1.6.2025 2.37 pm analysing my life

Dear Journal,

I'm positively heartbroken. Arun has moved on so easily. I must too. I can't send him so many messages. There is a great distance between us. The cards show that he has found new love. He also says he has.

I am kind of stuck. I've found a kind of serenity and peace of mind. A kind of feeling of letting go and letting things be without pushing for too much, not from him, not from anybody.

Such is my interplay with life too.

Let's analyse my life:

Things going for me:

I have a lovely home.

I have a loving family.

I don't need to worry about food.

I have good friends.

I read a lot.

I love writing.

I am creative.

I am kind.

I love wholeheartedly.

I choose happiness always.

I choose love always.

I am reasonably attractive.

People say I am intelligent. Almost everybody who meets me says that.

I make friends easily.

I am compassionate.

I really genuinely care about people.

I have many interests and many talents.

I am loved easily.

I am a loving person. 

I am resilient.

I am strong.

I am well-spoken.

I love children and the innocent.

Things going against me:

I seem to be stuck.

I am lazy.

I need to improve my relationship with money and my finances.

I need to get my career stirring up.

I have given into delusions in the past.

I've done foolish things.

I try to be tolerant but sometimes I lose my cool.

I need to have goals and follow them through.

Love,

Me.

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