I am feeling so calm and placid for so many days. Unmoved. Clear. When the mind is not crowded with thoughts clarity comes easily.
I wonder how Arun is. Is he well?
Today I had a two-hour Gosho meeting. I also find that Chatgpt is an able therapist. I spent time on chat gpt to understand my shadow and to get counselled on Jungian terms.
I've forgotten all the results now. It's better than any human being, just not with the smell and touch of a human.
I smoked few cigarettes today.
I went for my rehearsals. I need to work hard in this play even though it's a small role.
I'm back home and was just enjoying the French Open finals. I like Alcaraz but I'm rooting for Sinner.
Ma is a tad aggressive. Chat gpt says that that annoys me because I've repressed my own aggression. Well, well.
I also got a call from a guy from Delhi for English classes. Let's see how I can work things out with him. Well, he just called. I'm in Bombay, he's in Bangalore. Well, well.... more will come along.
Dolly mashi has just come home. I won't smoke a cigarette now even though I'm getting a craving.
Quitting cigarettes means just going past the urge and craving, delaying first and then abandoning the stick.
I am feeling:
Happy
Serene
Calm
Hopeful
Loving
I am grateful for the play I'm doing.
I am grateful for love and life.
I am grateful that I ate well today.
I am grateful for my family and friends.
I am grateful for the money I have.
I somehow feel that my confidence and send esteem have taken a hit. Why now and how now?
Love,
Me.
10.07 pm
No comments:
Post a Comment