Can I tell you honestly, you know it is the truth, I love you way more than you love me. I've been far more loyal to you and I'm devoted to you and I respect you no matter how you exhibit yourself. I've never had this kind of tolerance for any other person in my life and I think you take my love for granted.
If any other guy had said, "Mere paas char aur ladkiyan Hai iski Tarah par Mai iske saath nahin rehta kyunki ye pagal Hai," The guy would have been blocked and would never see my face ever again.
But for some reason I can't dissociate from you. I can't leave you. I don't know why or what it is. I think it's the fact that you've never said something like this in front of me before and also that you have other qualities that far outshine your acid tongue like your sweet heart and your cute face.
You are a lot like my mom. You expect perfection from the people you love and are very demanding and if something falls short of your expectation you go on and on about it, criticising and ranting. And frankly, that's a lot to take.
Could you do one thing for me? Just accept that I acted out in the past out of stress or whatever and please forgive me. There is no need to run me down and make me feel disrespected and small just because of that. I have a certain way of thinking and I'm a certain kind of person and I'd like appreciation and acceptance.
You don't have to treat me so disrespectfully.
Don't you feel it's wrong to talk about someone who loves you so much and cares so deeply about you this way? Do you have a conscience? Or do you nor know how I feel about you? Or do you not care?
Well meet your four other girls and don't meet me because you think I'm mad. But then don't kiss me and don't be loving. And if you do love me accept me how I am flaws and all just the way I love you and accept you flaws and all.
You have your flaws too but I'm not going to point them out to you because an eye for an eye would make the whole world go blind.
If my flaws are too much for you to take let me know and I'll stop talking to you. But that would be heartache for me.
I'll change and I'm taking steps but change is a slow process and a complicated process and an individualistic process.
In other words, I expect far more respect from you and not this criticising, bitching and ranting. Are you really such a small person?
You are just like my mom!!!! Arrrgh! And I can't do without you, you should know that by now.
I know you won't change overnight but do reflect on my words please and know that you really hurt me a lot and I've never heard you talking this way before.
If you don't want me in your life you can cut me out otherwise cut me some slack, please.
I love you,
Doel.
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