I love Arun. But him calling me mad and pagal yesterday didn't sit well with me. I was just about moving on, just about making peace with our break up. And then we made out.
I think I did right. I chose to respect myself. I hope Arun doesn't take my messages personally.
I really want to be friends with him, platonic friends.
He said last night that he has many women. Why did he say that?
Plus he's married and there is no future to us.
If we are friends there is a better chance to have in my life for a longer time rather than getting romantically tangled. That's how I view it.
I really love him but I'm feeling really sad. Today Ra Ti praised me during rehearsals and said that the other actors are not performing as well. I think they are performing fine.
He's also got a double cast for me so I won't be doing all the shows.
I hope I don't keep thinking about Arun and I hope he is not sad about my messages and sees the positivity in them. I'd rather be his friend and have him in my life forever more than anything else.
In other news, Shivani's sister Shefali Jariwala passed away. That is truly shocking. I sent Shivani a message. I am actually in a state of shock.
Love,
Me.
1.35 am
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