I hope Arun is fine. I really love him. Always will. But I think since there is no future to our relationship there is no point holding on.
He did matter. He still matters. He always will. And I know I'll always love him. I'll give him his space and honour all the beautiful memories I created with him. I know he will find some other woman soon if he hasn't already because that's what I gathered from his talk.
I hope she treats him with the kind of respect and love he deserves.
For me I think I'll face life now. Dee will be here now and we will be studying the Three Kinds of Treasures. I really always wanted to tell Arun to chant Nam Myo Ho Renge Kyo. If he is open to staying in touch some day I will.
It's the most beautiful, magical, mystical chant. It answers impossible prayers. It really does.
I don't chant regularly but I should.
Deep inside I've kind of let him go today. I think they were his words and the disrespect I felt that stung. I hope he remembers me fondly because I meant well, I really did.
I gave him my whole heart and I don't think the past will come alive again. And where we stand there is no future.
I'll always, always love my sweetest Arun.
Love,
Me.
10.57 am
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