Sunday, 29 June 2025

Love letter to myself 29.6.2025 2.37 pm

Hey you!
You've always felt Arun's heart and seen beauty in his soul but today I think you can see his detachment, arrogance and disrespect. You always saw it but it was never directed at you. But today it is.
You know he will never apologise because he never has in the past. That's cruel.
And if he meant what he said that's even more cruel!
How've you been?
Don't wallow in your hurt, please. Let it be. Let it go. And let him go. Set him free. Let him fly.
And more importantly, I want you to fly, soar into the sky like a Phoenix!
Your flying dreams heralded a beautiful career in journalism.
You deserve your peace of mind and you deserve to be seen and valued in a relationship.
How are you feeling?
I see that you are slightly sad but sadness is a part of life.
You've grown so much in this relationship and that says a lot about you. You've grown as a person not just because of this relationship but inspite of it.
Because you loved and you loved deeply and wholly. And that speaks volumes about you.
You hold the world in your heart and you respect and honour everybody.
I think you are too sweet. You wouldn't hurt a soul. You cried in the lab as a Neurobiologist when you had to dissect flies and snails. You literally couldn't even harm a fly!
You are too kind.
And believe me you are wonderful. Your drama friends love you. Some keep telling you how wonderful you are.
May be you should see it.
Frankly, I think Arun's words were intended to sabotage the friendship because may be he was feeling trapped in all your emotions with his many women in his life. Because you messaged and you called because you cared.
But you didn't get that care and love back and you deserve better.
I know you. You won't be dating for a long time now. But when you do, whenever it is, it'll be wonderful.
Life has a funny way of surprising you and life is magical.
I love you and I see the light in your eyes and the spark in you and life will turn out wonderfully well for you. It will be beautiful.
No regrets. And no regrets at the parting. A relationship such as a friendship can't be held by just one person.
And you deserve respect and you deserve to be seen.
Don't downplay yourself for anyone and don't settle for disrespect but always operate from a place of love and understanding.
Well, that's easy for you because it comes naturally to you.
I think you are more emotionally intelligent than you give yourself credit for.
I see you. I hear you. I feel you.
A part of you will always love Arun but I think it's time to let go. Don't be too sad and shed those tears but don't let that become cacophony.
It'll settle. It always does.
You'll always remember his sweetness but see the pain and make peace with it.
Life is about to get better.
Take care.
Hold it together and I know you will hold it well.

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