Just like that Jan went by.
I woke up from a dream in the morning where i saw that i married my first cousin Kutda and society and people about me were abuzz about it. Like how did I do that-- marry my first cousin?
I saw that my first cousin had chosen to marry me, done everything to marry me and in the dream i remember looking at his face and thinking this is the man i married.
We had a good relationship, a good companionship in the dream. I remember him sinking into sand at the beach and me sinking but jumping out and he gets encapsulated in the sand neck-down and breaks himself free and two rows of tiles break on the pavement there as he breaks free.
Then i am making a choice in the dream to eat at a restaurant and i woke up.
Last evening Husnaa came home. We bought beer and talked late into the night. It was so much fun! A girl's night after such a long time.
I even took walks with Twi.
I had to meet Suma today but woke up so late i had to cancel it.
Today Va Per said he's coming home. Everytime i want to make some movement in my life some social obligation comes up. After Va Per leaves I'll probably shoot Tarot videos. I want to be super rich. I do.
I wonder how Arun is. I'm just thinking about him and it's always been like this for the past three years. I'm not obsessed. He is always on my mind. I don't know for once what to write about him.
I don't want to lose our connection.
I am feeling:
Dirty because i didn't have a bath yesterday.
I am grateful for God's infinite love, grace and blessings on my life. I am grateful for abundance.
Ma fell from a chair yesterday and is really hurt.
Love,
Me.
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