Firstly, I'm sorry i made you feel so miserable. I'm so sorry.
It's alright that you asked me to leave Bottles. You wanted to be left alone. But i just wanted to have a pleasant time with you.
You know Im very worried about you. You dont really take care of yourself. You take care of your beard and your moustache and your body and your hair but that's taking care of the outer. You don't nourish yourself with food regularly, you don't sleep, you don't take care of your mental health and your mind and your heart and your emotions. That makes me very worried about you.
Im the opposite. I dont take care of my outer but i always make sure i nourish myself well from within. I read, i write for myself, not just professionally, i seek therapy, i eat and sleep and exercise.
Secondly, when i say i love you. Of course i do! What is there to not love about you except the fact that you say you don't know what you saw in me. I hate it that you said that. You really hurt me when you said i was a rebound and that you really loved the one before me.
I love you that way. As you being a loveable humanbeing.
Ive changed my therapist. Im going to someone new and she is really good.
Would you ever want me to stop loving you? I never will. I would never abandon you.
I love your nails. And i love your hands. And what magical quality do your eyes have that i cant keep my eyes off them?
I wont tell you I Love you again. Because you dont respond very well to that. And i know you'd rather that i move on. Im really trying sweety.
But oh for the touch of that hand
And the sound of the voice that is still!
Love,
Doel
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