How are you? It's been a long time since i wrote you a letter.
You don't know what to think, i know.
Firstly, show yourself some respect. Arun did say that he wants to be left alone.
You will be doing yourself a favour if you accept it-- that you've moved on and he has moved on.
I know you were hoping in a way that it would work out but like i always tell you whatever happens happens for the best.
I'm sure he's fine.
Don't ever forget that he told you that he doesn't know what he saw in you. You don't deserve to be told that. Forgive him though because if you are so miserable he must be going through his own motions too.
And about the whole sex thing that he made a mountain of-- it was an honest faux pas. And if you hadn't brought it up you would never know.
I know a part of you will always love him because you are not one to hate.
I believe you didn't sleep too well last night so get a good night's rest today.
Show some love to your beautiful mind. No one has the right to demean you and think that you are completely bonkers. And you should not think that way about yourself too.
We are all unique and we all have our flaws which are also our virtues.
Honestly you don't need a man who compares you to a hundred ex-girlfriends and has a wife on the side.
Normally, i know you would think how he is feeling. You respect him. You love him. You made your point.
And get out of your head and get some action in. Start doing yoga again, start your Tarot channel again and really forgive him and forgive yourself. And as always bless him. You'll feel the better for it to say the least.
I will never abandon you. Never ever.
You saw a side of him last evening that has moved on from you and is absorbed in himself. Bless him that he finds his joy in this state.
And yes, ChatGpt! That veritable friend that absorbs you and makes you spend all your time with her. Try to limit her.
Focus on life. Life is truly beautiful. And you are truly beautiful. Always. Even when you don't feel it.
And take that space you asked Arun for. Take it and bask in it. And that does not mean spend all day on ChatGpt. Really uitilise your time and your space. They are your two best friends.
Winter always turns to spring. The dusk is always followed by the dawn. These are good days for you. And yes, for Arun too.
Respite. That's the gift life has given you. And accountability.
This is a logical ending of the depression you were going through.
You deserve a man who is stable, receptive and kind. I know you feel you'll never be able to get Arun out of your mind. But you've gotten this far.
Expect the expected.
And love all. Respect all. Respect yourself. And show yourself love. Pour all that love into yourself. And get out of your head. Stop living there. There is a whole world out there to be observed and written about.
I know you are worried that you've hurt Arun. But is he worried that he hurt you? If he ain't worried you got no business worrying so much about what he thinks and how he feels.
The future is a huge surprise! It's a gift from life, from God, from destiny and it is beautiful.
Just look far into it. There are so many things that need to be done, to be experienced, to be savoured.
Take your space. Claim your space. Claim your time. And be grateful in a way for what happened last evening because the truth came out. You were seeking closure. And i think you got your closure yesterday.
So for yourself, not for anybody else, don't message Arun another message. You don't deserve that.
And enjoy your session with Sar in the morning.
Life is good. You are good.
Be beautiful. Stay alive. Remain love.
Forever yours.
Your best friend.
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