I have been feeling so drowsy. I think i'm healing. In the morning after my walk and pranayam i had to buy a few provisions for DuMa.
I ate luchi with gajar halwa for lunch. And cholar dal and begun bharta and roti with onions for dinner.
Then it took me three hours to give my audition with back and forth from the casting director.
Then i had every intention to upload videos for my Tarot channel but was feeling so tired that i just lay down and i fell asleep.
I woke up in time for the Nica meeting.
Sometime in the middle i meditated and prayed. I find that in blessing people in your prayers your heart expands.
I left the Nica meeting early to go for my dpm and I've been selected as the emcee for the Jan meeting. We have a 120 hour daimoku target.
Then i came home to messages from DeJh who sounded troubled.
Through the day i thought about care.
If you want a beautiful mind, you have to take care of it. If you want money, you have to be careful with it. If you want good health, you have to take care. If you want to be beautiful, you have to take care. If you want a great career, you have to be careful. In relationships of all sorts you have to be careful. And DISCIPLINED! It's careful vs carefree where today i chose to be graceful, beautiful and careful.
Also, people so flippantly say that they don't love him/her anymore when they claim that they fell in love with that person.
Because falling in love is a rare phenomenon and lasting love is about responsibility where you feel responsible for your beloved's happiness and well-being and unconditionally wish them well. I'll always love Arun, Ma, Pa, etc. etc. The media (movies, songs-- the commercial kinds) exalts romance and passion but true love is enduring. If it's not you never loved that person. True love will weather storms and i want to find that kind of love with someone who believes in my concept of love too.
As i was leaving the dpm from Psha's house i realised that Dimpydi has that strong Dharamshala connection apropos my dream in the morning. And i thought about Buddhism and the Dalai Lama, a truly loving man.
I daydreamed a bit, ate my dinner and now i'll hit the sack. I'm not feeling particularly sleepy so i'll brush my teeth, apply the tomato face pack, read, then sleep.
I am feeling:
Happy
Simple
Full of love today. I weathered an emotional storm recently. My periods have arrived early.
Beautiful from within
Benevolent
Excited for the Jan-end Nica meeting
Oh! And i cracked Eaxs. I'm so excited to start. It should be fun. No job is too big or small.
I am grateful for my building and my home with its vast plantations where i can stroll, do yoga and pranayam.
I am grateful for the food i eat, the money i have and the shelter that is my abode with all my possessions.
I am grateful for friends, all of them.
I am grateful that i get audition requests.
I am grateful for my sangha.
I am grateful for my Tarot channel. It's a means to reach people.
I am grateful for my parents, my Chotto and my entire family.
I am grateful for every way i find support.
I am grateful for God's infinite love, grace and blessings on my life. I am grateful that i have a heart that blesses.
I am grateful for this beautiful deep night.
I am grateful for art and culture.
Love,
Me.
10.36 pm
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