Since my last post I for the first time chanted for an hour at a stretch. And it seemed like such a short while. I blessed all those I love and don't love in my prayers. Well, I love everybody. I blessed Arun, his two children and his wife.
Even before everytime I pray for Arun's wife with blessings I can feel her energy, I can feel her pain and I feel heavy. I feel like I carry her heart in mine and I feel really close to her.
That causes me to feel really uncomfortable and kind of responsible for her happiness in a way. I don't feel such heaviness praying for anybody else. I feel really free and comfortable praying for Arun himself.
Anyway I carried this discomfort with me for some time and then I dug into Sensei's lecture series on Opening of the Eyes.
What I grasp from my study is that the original cause and original effect of Buddhahood and the Boddhisattva way are inherent in all. All beings possess the Buddha nature and are already Buddhas because they have the potential to be Buddhas. And once they awaken to this identity they will never regress from the Boddhisattva way.
This is the essence of the principle of Three Thousand Realms in a Single Moment of Life which is the heart of the essential teaching of the Lotus Sutra. Sensei really has the knack to simplify tough concepts and drive them home.
I thought while studying that I would sit and work on my novel but I really feel like praying more, especially for Arun's wife. I think I'll do that.
It's pouring outside and going for a walk right now is out of the question.
I am feeling:
Happy
Benevolent
Worried about Arun
Determined
Hopeful
I am so grateful for Shakyamuni Buddha, the Lotus sutra and his life and his teachings.
Love,
Me.
8.53 pm
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