Since the last time I updated you I went for Ku Va's birthday party. There was yummy cake, munchies, Wai Wai noodles, cigarettes and beer.
We chatted a lot and played lots of soulful music. I played some songs that I share with Arun. And I really really miss him. I felt so nostalgic.
Many times during the party I felt like going home but I stayed on till the end.
Ra Ti is a good father and a good husband. His wife called him up many times and he gave the phone to me to talk to her.
Then he dropped me home.
My priority when I wake up each day is to chant, do yoga and write and then the whole day will follow.
Tillu is such a pleasure to talk to. And her guidance on being more clear about my vision for my work life is so apt, that is what I needed to hear.
I sometimes get worried looking at my palm but what's there to worry? What is is... I can define the future with my efforts now. The present is what matters.
I also had a deja vu during the party.
I feel a lot of love today.
I feel happy.
I feel determined and hopeful. Nothing is lost.
Even in rejecting me Arun taught me so much. I am the person I am because of him. I really really want to pay him his money back. He will feel so happy.
Love is all I really have to give. I have much more and I can give it but at the end of it all all I have is love.
I am blessed to practice Buddhism. I am blessed to have the life I have with all its experiences.
Love,
Me.
12.08 am
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