I woke up after 9.30 today and I smoked a few cigarettes today, just a few. I had every good intention to do my morning ablutions in a disciplined manner but intention is not the only thing that counts. Action means the whole world.
I had a dream at night about Bachan Sir telling me not to do the audience forward gesture in my third line of my play. I remember that vaguely.
I smoked two cigarettes and then sat down to meditate and such a wave of drowsiness engulfed me that I fell asleep till 2 pm. That's the whole morning gone!
I woke up and had a cup of tea made by Du Ma and ate lunch. And it was almost time to prepare to leave for rehearsals. I chanted a little, meditated, had a bath even as Ra Ti asked me to try and make it early because he wanted to have coffee with me.
I purposely went late but no one was there.
Pri and Hi both came early today. I forgot to take the sarees Ma picked out and I told Ra Ti that I would hop back home and get them. Hi accompanied me.
As I entered the building we met Ma who gave us a dabba full of dabeli and cake. Hi was super excited and she started munching on the cake immediately as we entered the lift.
I asked Mad to make us tea and we bitched a lot about Ra Ti. Nobody likes him.
He has cut his hair and he looks pure evil.
Hi was very happy to be in our house and I wish I could spend more time with her. She is actually super beautiful. She is also a beautiful person but she looks glazed and zonked sometimes. May be she smokes up or does drugs, who knows. She didn't tell me that though.
Then I messaged A asking him to meet me tomorrow to which he replied.
At rehearsals I chatted with Haro and that famous Cid guy Shantanu Singh was there today. I spoke to him a little bit.
The tabla lady also came today and rehearsals were fun. Me, Pri and Hi bonded today and Ku Va left early because he got a recording gig.
In the middle of the scenes Ni Ta wanted to talk to me. He was telling me about how he and his wife are struggling financially. He also told me that he finds me very good-natured and wants to be friends with me and keep in touch with me after the play. He said that we should meet up soon before rehearsals.
He also started telling me about how Ra Ti has been troubling him but there was no time. Rehearsals were fun today.
Me and Hi got scolded for taking a cigarette break.
At the end of it all Ra Ti asked me if I wanted to grab a drink with him and I said no.
We finished early today and Na Bho messaged saying he wants to catch up with me because he was passing by. But I saw that message rather late.
Also, some casting director has been after me for a semi bold role. I told him that I'm not interested because I didn't like his desperation.
I took a half an hour walk in the building after I came back home.
As I ate dinner I caught the Djoko-Cobboli Wimbledon match.
I don't know what to make of days like this when I seriously oversleep.
I have a bunch of things on my mind but I find it so difficult to get them done. What's really happened to me?
I am feeling:
Happy
Thoughtful
Delighted
Grateful
I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace and blessings on my life.
Love,
Me.
12.20 am
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