I had a dream that i was working with a very senior actress. Then i saw a child stuck out all in the cold amid many high rises in the middle of the night in a very posh junkyard kind of place. And the child questions the universe-- when will someone come to save him.
I think the child was me but in the dream it was a little boy that looked like Subbu uncle's son when he was small.
Even i wonder when will someone come to save me.
In the dream the universe was about to answer and i woke up.
Yesterday Arun did not call me back and i sent him a mail and messages accepting closure. I really needed to do that. There was no clarity when we broke up about why, where, when.
I do still love him but i don't think we will ever be together. And i know he has found someone else, which hurts me.
Yesterday i chatted with a guy called JoCo online. Nice guy. We get along well but i won't date him.
Then A Alam came and we played Tarot and then had beer at the beach. I told him about how much i miss Arun. Well, what's not meant to be is not meant to be.
I am feeling:
Happy with a tinge of sadness
A whole lot of love in my heart
I am grateful for God's infinite love, grace and blessings on my life.
Love,
Me.
8.54 am
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