Me and Psha rehearsed the skit for today. I haven't read through the script except twice.
Sadhya, Chotto, Pa, Ma, Sadhya's parents and I went to the club for dinner because it was Sadhya's father's birthday.
I feel so alone. Everywhere i go i see unhappy marriages. I am so happy that I didn't really marry Ro or Bha. I never had an interesting conversation with them.
I don't know if Chotto is happy but he looked happy today with that glint in his eyes.
Pa is not talking to me and that pains me even more.
All my friends tell me that they love talking to me but i don't find most people i meet interesting. DeJh is kind and he is sweet, Qud is a fireball. The only three people i have found reasonable to talk to in my life so far are Dimma, Arun and Chotto bacha.
Dimma always understood me and i miss her so much these days.
Chotto's advice is always appropriate and reasonable no matter how harsh and i love him the most in the whole wide world.
Arun... the conversations... him opening up, his mind, his heart, his soul... the small small things he said to me about me (it's 12.21 now)... his beautiful mind and his impact.
I miss those conversations.
I'll marry a man i can have interesting conversations with (not for sex ever) and not the next nice guy who topples up. Till them i'm happy with friends.
And may i get those conversations. Really may I. I'm tired of living like a pet dog that is not allowed to mate.
Love,
Me.
12.27 pm
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